My grandmother just passed away and my mother is in the hospital after her second surgery for glioblastoma multiforme (aggressive brain cancer) with an unknown amount of time left. I'm not the best at dealing with grief and will try to continue being as present as I can be (because I want to and it helps, I don't feel forced), but I will be taking some time on and off for my family and myself in the coming weeks. Thank you for understanding.

Oh she's so back

Big thanks to @bstategames for once again having the sickest loot imaginable. I'm officially hyped for seasons <3

In my MySpace era today

Alien

New Killa skin dropping soon

Love you.

My mom died today.

Return me to the sea~

How many times have you cried about the astronauts?

there are new details about #RushIsReal

Thank you for the birthday wishes today, and an even bigger thank you to all of my friends and family that flew out for my "throw me a party not a funeral" gathering last night. I've never cried so hard or felt so loved in my entire life. This might have been goodbye for now, but I'll find you all in some way in this world or the next, promise.

Super fun cool workbook to do, but happy side note, I can see more clearly than ever!

Fatiguée femme fatale (wish me luck, today is not a good day)

I legally can't give information on this situation, and I wouldn't anyway since it's not worth risking people's safety for what amounts to me being minimally responsive while being too ill to move. I will say I'm unsurprised, and while a few creators are genuinely lovely people, the mind blowing cruelty, callousness, and short sighted behavior from certain individuals trapped in their microcosms is completely aligned with what I've seen over and over again in entertainment and especially the vtubing space. I'm not going to Google doccy and have my last acts be defending myself against people devoid of empathy that don't even know how fractions and percentages work. If you're new here, hi, I'm Endra. I'm going to continue posting as usual when I'm upright regardless of what happens next, and while I know the court of public opinion is entertaining it is almost always inaccurate and sensational. Love you guys, until next time.

Just confirming that if you got a message from me on Disc, IG, etc it was from me. I've (understandably) had a few people reach out to make sure I wasn't hacked and I wasn't, just me.

I adore this gift so much.

I am stepping down from the leadership of Kinetic for the time being due to severe medical issues that are going to at best leave me minimally functional as I undergo multiple surgeries and hopeful recovery. For the past year I’ve been in and out of hospitals and doctors' offices while still trying to do as much work as I can, but in the past few months I’ve rapidly declined and it’s become unbearable and impossible to continue. I don’t know what the future looks like for me right now, but I do know that Kinetic will be in the best hands while I try to make it through this situation. For inquiries please reach out to Jeremy, Autumn, or through our site. I’m so grateful for the care you’ve all shown during these years, and I’ll be here when I can. Thank you.

Happy 2026, I love you.

You know what, maybe everything is going to be okay.