Idk what to do anymore, my whole life is a mess right now, I been dealing with derealaztion for a year and couple of months now, I don’t work right now and just bed rot the whole day, to make it worse I have severe anxiety and panic attacks, feel like i having a heart attack or something and to make it worse last month I made a big mistake and now it might catch up to me idk, and no I’m not gonna explain what I did. The only way I cope is just to act like I don’t care but 24/7 I’m anxious, shaking or something, I’m 20 and my birthday is next week and just thinking about smoking and drinking to cope even though I know that’s not gonna help and makes things worse and I’m just so lost and confused and I push everyone away, this sounds like a pity post or I sound pathetic, but I just had to say something.