Honestly we all start somewhere,
This was me three years ago and I’m completely different from then and now.
Transition is real, 3 years ago I also thought that I would never make it as a woman and I would be very transphobic to myself, but overtime I’ve come to better myself and my transition, and made me the person I am today.
Everyone has a journey, and eventually you will get there too as long as you keep striving for it.