Wouldn't surprise me if this post has a kill count. No matter what you do this can't be undone.
It isn't about sex, it isn't even about her looking good or whatever. It's about the state of mind. Have you ever felt truly free since you left high school? I know I haven't. I will never experience care free love of blissful youth.
I contemplate suicide when I think about this, so I try not to think about to, but some days I can't help it.
Just went to the bathroom at my work to cry for 20 minutes.
