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OUR LOVE IS MY REVOLUTION
🛌 severe m.e. & fibro 1.8 FUNCAP | 99% bedbound

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old words because i’ve been loosing my ability to write. this “earth day” i am reminded that my disabilities are an honest, natural response to living in a world that has normalized the exploitation and suffering of myself, the land, and that of the global majority - colonialism is a poison. our bodyminds carry the knowledge that this is not how we were meant to live

the land is our lover, just as we are theirs. i ache to be held by the wind and the sun again. what i would give to visit the mountains and trees i grew up with

i think of those with m.e. more severe than my own, who are entirely hospital-bound, dependent on 24/7 darkness, silence, iv fluids and feeding tubes, neglected by medical research, abandoned by so-called community and providers alike, without the care and understanding they deserve, or otherwise left to die (disproportionately our unhoused and incarcerated kin). this is an especially horrifying considering how those most affected by disability — black and brown working class femmes and colonized peoples everywhere — are often deprived access to “medical care” altogether due to the ongoing violence of colonialism, anti-blackness, white supremacy, racial capitalism, misogynoir, misogyny, and g3n0cide (aka the material conditions that forcefully reproduce mass-disablement and death to begin with). i do not say this in the abstract. you can visit the recent collabs featured on this page to support some of our racialized disabled kin in real time

we will only ever know freedom when every black and brown disabled femme is free. it is their liberation that guides us — their lifeways, resistance, & wellbeing that defines the conditions of our collective liberation. THERE IS NO DISABILITY JUSTICE WITHOUT LAND BACK

old words because i’ve been loosing my ability to write. this “earth day” i am reminded that my disabilities are an honest, natural response to living in a world that has normalized the exploitation and suffering of myself, the land, and that of the global majority - colonialism is a poison. our bodyminds carry the knowledge that this is not how we were meant to live the land is our lover, just as we are theirs. i ache to be held by the wind and the sun again. what i would give to visit the mountains and trees i grew up with i think of those with m.e. more severe than my own, who are entirely hospital-bound, dependent on 24/7 darkness, silence, iv fluids and feeding tubes, neglected by medical research, abandoned by so-called community and providers alike, without the care and understanding they deserve, or otherwise left to die (disproportionately our unhoused and incarcerated kin). this is an especially horrifying considering how those most affected by disability — black and brown working class femmes and colonized peoples everywhere — are often deprived access to “medical care” altogether due to the ongoing violence of colonialism, anti-blackness, white supremacy, racial capitalism, misogynoir, misogyny, and g3n0cide (aka the material conditions that forcefully reproduce mass-disablement and death to begin with). i do not say this in the abstract. you can visit the recent collabs featured on this page to support some of our racialized disabled kin in real time we will only ever know freedom when every black and brown disabled femme is free. it is their liberation that guides us — their lifeways, resistance, & wellbeing that defines the conditions of our collective liberation. THERE IS NO DISABILITY JUSTICE WITHOUT LAND BACK

OUR ENEMIES ARE NOT AFRAID TO K!LL US. as someone who was disabled by gendered racial violence, learning how to protect myself and others WITH force and WITHOUT guilt has been extremely important to me

i used to carry a knife for protection (a fixed-blade dagger visible in a sheath on my waist, legal in the state of california) - now that i am fully bedbound with the exception of occasional bathroom use, i’m still trying to work out ways i can access arms training. i wish i had the physical capacity to learn more collective self-defense

if you have the privilege of mobility (and benefit from other privileges like race or class that make you less likely to be targeted by the state), now’s a good time to get comfortable with being armed (this has long been true!). as someone who relies on mobility aids, i will use my cane as a weapon and whatever else is on hand as needed. our enemies will be using guns

may we learn what we must to protect ourselves and our community (first aid, militant care & resistance) !!!
this includes masking with an n95 or kn95 if/however you’re able to defend ourselves and others against airborne viruses (like covid) and state surveillance which have the capacity to disable and kill us, our comrades, and our movements - disproportionately our black and brown kin, and colonized peoples everywhere. pandemics are a tool of the state. let’s not do the colonizer’s work for them

ZINE BY DHORUBA BIN WAHAD: THE BLACK LIBERATION ARMY & H A M A S. essential reading

you can support wahad’s medical needs here: http://www.gofundme.com/f/support-dhoruba-bin-wahad

maskbloc.org is a resource to find free masks in your area. if there are no accessible mask bloc resources near you, please feel free to dm me and i will try raising fvndz to have some sent to you directly!

OUR ENEMIES ARE NOT AFRAID TO K!LL US. as someone who was disabled by gendered racial violence, learning how to protect myself and others WITH force and WITHOUT guilt has been extremely important to me i used to carry a knife for protection (a fixed-blade dagger visible in a sheath on my waist, legal in the state of california) - now that i am fully bedbound with the exception of occasional bathroom use, i’m still trying to work out ways i can access arms training. i wish i had the physical capacity to learn more collective self-defense if you have the privilege of mobility (and benefit from other privileges like race or class that make you less likely to be targeted by the state), now’s a good time to get comfortable with being armed (this has long been true!). as someone who relies on mobility aids, i will use my cane as a weapon and whatever else is on hand as needed. our enemies will be using guns may we learn what we must to protect ourselves and our community (first aid, militant care & resistance) !!! this includes masking with an n95 or kn95 if/however you’re able to defend ourselves and others against airborne viruses (like covid) and state surveillance which have the capacity to disable and kill us, our comrades, and our movements - disproportionately our black and brown kin, and colonized peoples everywhere. pandemics are a tool of the state. let’s not do the colonizer’s work for them ZINE BY DHORUBA BIN WAHAD: THE BLACK LIBERATION ARMY & H A M A S. essential reading you can support wahad’s medical needs here: http://www.gofundme.com/f/support-dhoruba-bin-wahad maskbloc.org is a resource to find free masks in your area. if there are no accessible mask bloc resources near you, please feel free to dm me and i will try raising fvndz to have some sent to you directly!

comorbid m.e. and adhd (a living death) - on the devastation of having a dopamine starved mind, while existing in a body unable to handle most stimuli. mourning what was, holding what is. and chronic illness as our body’s revolt against racial capitalism and all the forces that proceed it

“PEM is nothing short of traumatic. Even more so for Black and brown disabled femmes, whose access to autonomy and rest has been additionally constrained by systemic violence…The overepresentation of white people in the ME “community” is no doubt informed by medical racism, misogyny, and classism, which deprives those marginalized by race, gender, and class from accessing the care needed to survive this illness, or receive a formal diagnosis, leading to far more fatal health outcomes…most people are not afforded the privilege (*right) of full time care, or even rest under empire and racial capitalism. Black and brown people, especially those who are working-class and femme, are disproportionately at risk of very severe ME and death for these reasons precisely. To matter, ME advocacy must center racial justice, gender liberation, and class struggle. Otherwise, our “world-building” will only continue to exploit, harm, and marginalize our Black and brown comrades…Black and Indigenous peoples continue to maintain the ancestral wisdom and material struggle needed to holistically support those experiencing pain and distress. It is imperative that our collective organizing can account for these truths.”

🌷 please expect typos and run on sentences due to my limited ability to write
- 9th slide should read “alternative” not new

🌿 IMAGE SOURCES & CITATION: the first art piece is by @dadushin the second art piece is an illustration made for an essay by daiva budriene titled “day, night, and day again.” the third art piece is by megumi tsuji. the drawing of a horizontal blue face was sourced from pinterest, credit unknown. the sculpture is by @rare_earth_mineral. the denovo quote is from an article titled “doctors who refuse to engage with administrative work are abandoning their poorest and sickest patients”

#writing #millionsmissing #myalgicencephalomyelitis #mecfs #meawarenessday

comorbid m.e. and adhd (a living death) - on the devastation of having a dopamine starved mind, while existing in a body unable to handle most stimuli. mourning what was, holding what is. and chronic illness as our body’s revolt against racial capitalism and all the forces that proceed it “PEM is nothing short of traumatic. Even more so for Black and brown disabled femmes, whose access to autonomy and rest has been additionally constrained by systemic violence…The overepresentation of white people in the ME “community” is no doubt informed by medical racism, misogyny, and classism, which deprives those marginalized by race, gender, and class from accessing the care needed to survive this illness, or receive a formal diagnosis, leading to far more fatal health outcomes…most people are not afforded the privilege (*right) of full time care, or even rest under empire and racial capitalism. Black and brown people, especially those who are working-class and femme, are disproportionately at risk of very severe ME and death for these reasons precisely. To matter, ME advocacy must center racial justice, gender liberation, and class struggle. Otherwise, our “world-building” will only continue to exploit, harm, and marginalize our Black and brown comrades…Black and Indigenous peoples continue to maintain the ancestral wisdom and material struggle needed to holistically support those experiencing pain and distress. It is imperative that our collective organizing can account for these truths.” 🌷 please expect typos and run on sentences due to my limited ability to write - 9th slide should read “alternative” not new 🌿 IMAGE SOURCES & CITATION: the first art piece is by @dadushin the second art piece is an illustration made for an essay by daiva budriene titled “day, night, and day again.” the third art piece is by megumi tsuji. the drawing of a horizontal blue face was sourced from pinterest, credit unknown. the sculpture is by @rare_earth_mineral. the denovo quote is from an article titled “doctors who refuse to engage with administrative work are abandoning their poorest and sickest patients” #writing #millionsmissing #myalgicencephalomyelitis #mecfs #meawarenessday

reposting with more text. nothing i could write will ever be enough to convey what it means to live with this devastating illness. it’s m.e. awareness day and i have no capacity to design a new post. i’ll be spending this birthday week like all the rest: bedbound, in the dark and in excruciating pain (for over two years & counting), likely unable to tolerate the stimuli of light, clothes, movement, sound, or the company of family or friends, despite navigating debilitating, unending symptoms

i am still incredibly privileged to have access to a bed, the temporary ability to chew, and the capacity needed to briefly tolerate the light of my phone, let alone consolidate enough energy to write a few sentences (most days, even this is an impossibility). for many folks with m.e. more severe than my own, all this and more has been *taken from them due to structural neglect of this devastating disease

please learn about m.e. before you have it & do what you can to spread the word. mobilize around the material needs of those already experiencing this chronic illness (especially the needs of our multiply-marginalized kin, who are all the more likely to be deprived the support needed to survive m.e. under racial capitalism)

this disease is called a “living death” for a reason

we need your care & advocacy while we’re still here. building infrastructure that honor our collective interdependence is how we get free

*you can visit my feed and highlights for more info/writing on m.e. & posts uplifting other racialized people with m.e. who need our ongoing support

#myalgicencephalomyelitis #mecfs #meawareness #meawarenessday #millionsmissing

reposting with more text. nothing i could write will ever be enough to convey what it means to live with this devastating illness. it’s m.e. awareness day and i have no capacity to design a new post. i’ll be spending this birthday week like all the rest: bedbound, in the dark and in excruciating pain (for over two years & counting), likely unable to tolerate the stimuli of light, clothes, movement, sound, or the company of family or friends, despite navigating debilitating, unending symptoms i am still incredibly privileged to have access to a bed, the temporary ability to chew, and the capacity needed to briefly tolerate the light of my phone, let alone consolidate enough energy to write a few sentences (most days, even this is an impossibility). for many folks with m.e. more severe than my own, all this and more has been taken from them due to structural neglect of this devastating disease please learn about m.e. before you have it & do what you can to spread the word. mobilize around the material needs of those already experiencing this chronic illness (especially the needs of our multiply-marginalized kin, who are all the more likely to be deprived the support needed to survive m.e. under racial capitalism) this disease is called a “living death” for a reason we need your care & advocacy while we’re still here. building infrastructure that honor our collective interdependence is how we get free you can visit my feed and highlights for more info/writing on m.e. & posts uplifting other racialized people with m.e. who need our ongoing support #myalgicencephalomyelitis #mecfs #meawareness #meawarenessday #millionsmissing

GOAL $350
v: callisto41
ca: $jupiterscalli

hi, pls shair & d0nate as able. no fund/z have come in for a couple days and i know my old flyer was blurry cuz i forgot to account for size difference when making it quickly after my seizure last week. thx! this grid post is shareable just pls don’t screenshot 🌸 using old vids for algae

feel free to comment ur fav way to hydrate 🧃🧋🫖

GOAL $350 v: callisto41 ca: $jupiterscalli hi, pls shair & d0nate as able. no fund/z have come in for a couple days and i know my old flyer was blurry cuz i forgot to account for size difference when making it quickly after my seizure last week. thx! this grid post is shareable just pls don’t screenshot 🌸 using old vids for algae feel free to comment ur fav way to hydrate 🧃🧋🫖

my birthday is in a few days and all i want is for my friends to have their needs met. please swipe to learn how you can support hamed and his siblings, who lost their home in g a z a due to relentless bombing by i s r a e l. displaced multiple times as well as forced to endure ongoing g3n0c!de, access to shelter, food, and medicine is extremely limited. in order to better support his family, hamed is trying to raise the fvndz needed to evacuate g a z a and is 1090 from his goal please CONTRIBUTE fvndz at the link in my bio if you’re able, and UPLIFT the second slide however possible!! prompts for the COMMENTS are included below. if you’re unable to engage now, please BOOKMARK this post to come back to later! especially for those of us living within the imperial core, (especially for those of us whose tax dollars are funding ethnic cleansing & g3n0c!de) mobilizing on behalf of the needs of our black and brown kin is the bare minimum 📖 hamed is also an incredible writer, whose work you can read on my profile. if you are interested in helping hamed to print and distribute his zine in your city, please send @bostontranscollective a message or dm me to be added to a groupchat 🌷🌷proceeds will be distributed by hamed directly to folks on the ground in p a l e s t i n e 💌 tell me about something that brings you comfort or hope! (a place, food, routine, media, memory, person, etc) 💌 what would be your ideal way to celebrate your birthday? 💌 what have you been dreaming/day dreaming of lately? 💌 please feel free to drop your own prompts or start a random convo below <3

help needed immediately. todays goal: $200. need to add another care web member asap (see pinned post on @jupitermoonhealing444 and l!nk in b!o) and need funds for food and paid care.

v: CALLISTO41
ca: $JUPITERSCALLI

answer in comments ~ what’s a good inner child movie? 🌻

help needed immediately. todays goal: $200. need to add another care web member asap (see pinned post on @jupitermoonhealing444 and l!nk in b!o) and need funds for food and paid care. v: CALLISTO41 ca: $JUPITERSCALLI answer in comments ~ what’s a good inner child movie? 🌻

isolated and unable to work due to the severity of my m.e. and fibromyalgia, bedbound besides occasional bathroom use, and dependent on an unsafe living situation to access the care i need to survive, i am unable to afford food. my ghoal is 200

contributions of any amount will help me to access food and gain independence from abusive family members who compromise my survival as someone with severe m.e., fibro, audhd, ocd, c/ptsd, arfid and more which only worsen with ongoing stress and trauma. thank you dearly

c a s h a p p & v e n m o : solenneh (memo: 💗)

please swipe to learn how you can support our comrade in struggle, who needs fvndz to get to and from court! WE KEEP US SAFE means materially investing in each other’s survival + struggling against/dismantling all oppressive systems, structures, and empires

c a s h a p p : $massaid (memo: 🌟)
v e n m o : pinetreetreepine (memo: 🌟)

💌 commenting and bookmarking this post also helps to uplift these asks! here are some invitations:

- what’s something that brings you comfort or hope?
- what’s your favorite meal/drink? or what’s a meal/drink you want to try?
- what do you like about spring? (if anything! spring is my favorite season so i’m v much biased hehe)
- if you could have a portal take you anywhere, where would it be?

isolated and unable to work due to the severity of my m.e. and fibromyalgia, bedbound besides occasional bathroom use, and dependent on an unsafe living situation to access the care i need to survive, i am unable to afford food. my ghoal is 200 contributions of any amount will help me to access food and gain independence from abusive family members who compromise my survival as someone with severe m.e., fibro, audhd, ocd, c/ptsd, arfid and more which only worsen with ongoing stress and trauma. thank you dearly c a s h a p p & v e n m o : solenneh (memo: 💗) please swipe to learn how you can support our comrade in struggle, who needs fvndz to get to and from court! WE KEEP US SAFE means materially investing in each other’s survival + struggling against/dismantling all oppressive systems, structures, and empires c a s h a p p : $massaid (memo: 🌟) v e n m o : pinetreetreepine (memo: 🌟) 💌 commenting and bookmarking this post also helps to uplift these asks! here are some invitations: - what’s something that brings you comfort or hope? - what’s your favorite meal/drink? or what’s a meal/drink you want to try? - what do you like about spring? (if anything! spring is my favorite season so i’m v much biased hehe) - if you could have a portal take you anywhere, where would it be?

New URGENT Call for Support for Severely Disabled Community Member in Chicago! 🕯️🐦‍⬛💌🫶

🐛🌻DIRECT CONTRIBUTIONS 🐛🌻
to keep Sapphire Star alive and well can be sent here:
V: CALLISTO41
CA: $JUPITERSCALLI

🌟PLEASE ENGAGE🌟with this post/ask however you’re able to. Star and fae’s needs deserve your attention and care!

❤️‍🔥YOUR CONTRIBUTION MATTERS!❤️‍🔥
Whether it’s f!nancial support, virtual or IRL care, or b00sting this post, pls be as DILIGENT as if this was for someone you LOVE. Isolated Black disabled people are STILL members of our community and WORTHY of being seen, appreciated, and given what they need to not only survive but also thrive! Severely disabled people deserve bountiful care, and that shouldn’t be so hard to get because we will literally d!e without it!

🌬️ANSWER IN THE COMMENTS: What’s your favorite thing about winter ending / spring arriving? 🌸🪷🌷🦢💫🌱💕

New URGENT Call for Support for Severely Disabled Community Member in Chicago! 🕯️🐦‍⬛💌🫶 🐛🌻DIRECT CONTRIBUTIONS 🐛🌻 to keep Sapphire Star alive and well can be sent here: V: CALLISTO41 CA: $JUPITERSCALLI 🌟PLEASE ENGAGE🌟with this post/ask however you’re able to. Star and fae’s needs deserve your attention and care! ❤️‍🔥YOUR CONTRIBUTION MATTERS!❤️‍🔥 Whether it’s f!nancial support, virtual or IRL care, or b00sting this post, pls be as DILIGENT as if this was for someone you LOVE. Isolated Black disabled people are STILL members of our community and WORTHY of being seen, appreciated, and given what they need to not only survive but also thrive! Severely disabled people deserve bountiful care, and that shouldn’t be so hard to get because we will literally d!e without it! 🌬️ANSWER IN THE COMMENTS: What’s your favorite thing about winter ending / spring arriving? 🌸🪷🌷🦢💫🌱💕

Our comrade in struggle needs our material support as they navigate ongoing court dates ! Fvndz will help them get to and from court, because they live out of state. Please contribute if you can, and share as widely as possible!

c a s h a p p: $massaid (memo: 🌟 emoji)
v e n m o: pinetreetreepine (memo: 🌟 emoji)

you can also support this ask by BOOKMARKING and COMMENTING below! here are some invitations:

💌 how will you be spending your week?
💌 do you have a favorite pastime, hobby, or practice? tell us more!
💌 any music, book, film, or podcast recs?
💌 what’s something that brings you comfort? (a routine, memory, item, ritual, food, etc.)

Our comrade in struggle needs our material support as they navigate ongoing court dates ! Fvndz will help them get to and from court, because they live out of state. Please contribute if you can, and share as widely as possible! c a s h a p p: $massaid (memo: 🌟 emoji) v e n m o: pinetreetreepine (memo: 🌟 emoji) you can also support this ask by BOOKMARKING and COMMENTING below! here are some invitations: 💌 how will you be spending your week? 💌 do you have a favorite pastime, hobby, or practice? tell us more! 💌 any music, book, film, or podcast recs? 💌 what’s something that brings you comfort? (a routine, memory, item, ritual, food, etc.)

some more excerpts of writing by my friend @hamedswritings. hamed’s words provide us with a glimpse into his daily reality, along with the experiences of countless other p a l e s t i n i a n s resisting g 3 n 0 c ! d 3

💌 please contribute fvndz if you’re able at the link in my bio and circulate the third slide as widely as possible !! hamed and his siblings lost their home in g a z a due to relentless b 0 m b i n g by i s r a 3 l. in addition to being displaced multiple times as well as forced to endure constant violence, hamed is doing his best to care for his siblings. winter temperatures are deadly without the proper clothes and blankets. ongoing a ! d is needed to access necessities including food, water, medicine, and winter supplies to survive the cold

📖 if you are interested in helping hamed to print and distribute his zine in your city, please send @bostontranscollective a message or dm me to be added to a groupchat with hamed 🌷🌷proceeds will be distributed by hamed to those in need of direct support on the ground in p a l e s t i n e

below are some prompts for the comments:

💌 what is a line that struck you in hamed’s writing?
💌 what was the last thing you read/listened to?
💌 what’s something you want to read/listen to/learn more about?

some more excerpts of writing by my friend @hamedswritings. hamed’s words provide us with a glimpse into his daily reality, along with the experiences of countless other p a l e s t i n i a n s resisting g 3 n 0 c ! d 3 💌 please contribute fvndz if you’re able at the link in my bio and circulate the third slide as widely as possible !! hamed and his siblings lost their home in g a z a due to relentless b 0 m b i n g by i s r a 3 l. in addition to being displaced multiple times as well as forced to endure constant violence, hamed is doing his best to care for his siblings. winter temperatures are deadly without the proper clothes and blankets. ongoing a ! d is needed to access necessities including food, water, medicine, and winter supplies to survive the cold 📖 if you are interested in helping hamed to print and distribute his zine in your city, please send @bostontranscollective a message or dm me to be added to a groupchat with hamed 🌷🌷proceeds will be distributed by hamed to those in need of direct support on the ground in p a l e s t i n e below are some prompts for the comments: 💌 what is a line that struck you in hamed’s writing? 💌 what was the last thing you read/listened to? 💌 what’s something you want to read/listen to/learn more about?

ongoing survival fvndz are needed to support an unhoused, black, trans, disabled person !!!

❤️‍🩹 DiJ, the cofounder of a mask bloc, has been houseless since Dec 2024 & structurally abandoned. They are a survivor of multiple types of abuse, and have been forced to sleep in freezing temperatures for weeks, in a city where cops are vicious towards the unhoused & have killed several Black people this year

g o a l : 800, monthly
c a s h a p p : poetjaleane
v e n m o : solenneh (memo: flower emoji 🌷)

❤️‍🩹 DiJ released a thorough account of the oppression & abandonment that led them to dissolve the louisville mask bloc they co-founded, including a call-out of AntiBlack behavior and lineages and a tangiable list of demands that has yet to be met (learn more: https://tinyurl.com/ACallOut and @maskbloclou last post)

📣 Join DiJ in calling on M&N for their demands to be met. DM me for M&N’s contact info

❗️to ensure dij’s survival needs can be met, please CONTRIBUTE fvndz if you’re able, COMMENT, BOOKMARK and CIRCULATE this post however possible!

— invitations for the comments, please feel free to modify these prompts to your needs:

💌 any music, shows, movies, books, games, podcasts that you’ve been enjoying lately?
💌 do you have any hopes or things you’re proud of that you’d like to share?
💌 what was your last dream about?
💌 if you have the capacity to offer words of support for dij or any of your thoughts on the document they compiled, this would be much welcomed! 🌷🌷🪷

ongoing survival fvndz are needed to support an unhoused, black, trans, disabled person !!! ❤️‍🩹 DiJ, the cofounder of a mask bloc, has been houseless since Dec 2024 & structurally abandoned. They are a survivor of multiple types of abuse, and have been forced to sleep in freezing temperatures for weeks, in a city where cops are vicious towards the unhoused & have killed several Black people this year g o a l : 800, monthly c a s h a p p : poetjaleane v e n m o : solenneh (memo: flower emoji 🌷) ❤️‍🩹 DiJ released a thorough account of the oppression & abandonment that led them to dissolve the louisville mask bloc they co-founded, including a call-out of AntiBlack behavior and lineages and a tangiable list of demands that has yet to be met (learn more: https://tinyurl.com/ACallOut and @maskbloclou last post) 📣 Join DiJ in calling on M&N for their demands to be met. DM me for M&N’s contact info ❗️to ensure dij’s survival needs can be met, please CONTRIBUTE fvndz if you’re able, COMMENT, BOOKMARK and CIRCULATE this post however possible! — invitations for the comments, please feel free to modify these prompts to your needs: 💌 any music, shows, movies, books, games, podcasts that you’ve been enjoying lately? 💌 do you have any hopes or things you’re proud of that you’d like to share? 💌 what was your last dream about? 💌 if you have the capacity to offer words of support for dij or any of your thoughts on the document they compiled, this would be much welcomed! 🌷🌷🪷

OUR BLACK DISABLED KIN DESERVE ACCESS TO LIFE, CARE & REST !!! ongoing survival fvndz are needed to support an unhoused, black, trans, disabled person

❤️‍🩹 DiJ, the cofounder of a mask bloc, has been houseless since Dec 2024 & structurally abandoned. They are a survivor of multiple types of abuse, and have been forced to sleep in freezing temperatures for weeks, in a city where cops are vicious towards the unhoused & have killed several Black people this year

g o a l : 800, monthly
c a s h a p p : poetjaleane
*please dm me for v 3 n m 0

❤️‍🩹 DiJ released a thorough account of the oppression & abandonment that led them to dissolve the louisville mask bloc they co-founded, including a call-out of AntiBlack behavior and lineages and a tangiable list of demands that has yet to be met (learn more: https://tinyurl.com/ACallOut and @maskbloclou last post)

📣 Join DiJ in calling on M&N for their demands to be met. DM me for M&N’s contact info

❗️to ensure dij’s survival needs can be met, please CONTRIBUTE fvndz if you’re able, COMMENT, BOOKMARK and CIRCULATE this post however possible!

— comment prompts (modifications welcome!):

💌 any music, shows, movies, books, games, podcasts that you’d recommend?
💌 any hopes or things you’re proud of that you’d be open to sharing?
💌 what was your last dream about?
💌 start a conversation below
💌 if you have the capacity to offer words of support for dij or any of your thoughts on the document they compiled, this would be much appreciated! 🌷🌷🪷

OUR BLACK DISABLED KIN DESERVE ACCESS TO LIFE, CARE & REST !!! ongoing survival fvndz are needed to support an unhoused, black, trans, disabled person ❤️‍🩹 DiJ, the cofounder of a mask bloc, has been houseless since Dec 2024 & structurally abandoned. They are a survivor of multiple types of abuse, and have been forced to sleep in freezing temperatures for weeks, in a city where cops are vicious towards the unhoused & have killed several Black people this year g o a l : 800, monthly c a s h a p p : poetjaleane *please dm me for v 3 n m 0 ❤️‍🩹 DiJ released a thorough account of the oppression & abandonment that led them to dissolve the louisville mask bloc they co-founded, including a call-out of AntiBlack behavior and lineages and a tangiable list of demands that has yet to be met (learn more: https://tinyurl.com/ACallOut and @maskbloclou last post) 📣 Join DiJ in calling on M&N for their demands to be met. DM me for M&N’s contact info ❗️to ensure dij’s survival needs can be met, please CONTRIBUTE fvndz if you’re able, COMMENT, BOOKMARK and CIRCULATE this post however possible! — comment prompts (modifications welcome!): 💌 any music, shows, movies, books, games, podcasts that you’d recommend? 💌 any hopes or things you’re proud of that you’d be open to sharing? 💌 what was your last dream about? 💌 start a conversation below 💌 if you have the capacity to offer words of support for dij or any of your thoughts on the document they compiled, this would be much appreciated! 🌷🌷🪷

hello dear ones 💌💌🌱🌷🌿🪷⛰️🌷🌷 this is a personal support request with a selfie for the a l g 0 (cw: brief nondescript mentions of trauma)

to be transparent, i’ve been really struggling with isolation, grief, and CPTSD flashbacks. unfortunately, due the severity of my m.e. and fibromyalgia, i am bedbound, unable to handle the company of friends, or tolerate most stimuli, which has made it all the more challenging to cope. because my chronic illnesses were caused and (continue to be) exacerbated by trauma, my already precarious health has additionally been declining.

in an effort to honor my own politic of collective care and tend to my baseline, i come with a support request <3 (more info is included on the next slide)

if you have the capacity to write me letter, or send me some of your art (over insta or in the mail), this would mean moooons ! having physical reminders of your presence helps me to feel a part of the world again.

💌 for safety reasons, i unfortunately will only be able to share my new address with folks i’ve had convos with before (even brief exchanges over dm’s), and due to my limited capacity, i will likely be unable to reply, despite how much i cherish your words and creations. please only send letters/art if this is aligned with your needs !!

🕯️ i hope your week can allow for some care and relief. i’m wishing each of you warmth and tenderness. may we all be held with the love we deserve !!!

hello dear ones 💌💌🌱🌷🌿🪷⛰️🌷🌷 this is a personal support request with a selfie for the a l g 0 (cw: brief nondescript mentions of trauma) to be transparent, i’ve been really struggling with isolation, grief, and CPTSD flashbacks. unfortunately, due the severity of my m.e. and fibromyalgia, i am bedbound, unable to handle the company of friends, or tolerate most stimuli, which has made it all the more challenging to cope. because my chronic illnesses were caused and (continue to be) exacerbated by trauma, my already precarious health has additionally been declining. in an effort to honor my own politic of collective care and tend to my baseline, i come with a support request <3 (more info is included on the next slide) if you have the capacity to write me letter, or send me some of your art (over insta or in the mail), this would mean moooons ! having physical reminders of your presence helps me to feel a part of the world again. 💌 for safety reasons, i unfortunately will only be able to share my new address with folks i’ve had convos with before (even brief exchanges over dm’s), and due to my limited capacity, i will likely be unable to reply, despite how much i cherish your words and creations. please only send letters/art if this is aligned with your needs !! 🕯️ i hope your week can allow for some care and relief. i’m wishing each of you warmth and tenderness. may we all be held with the love we deserve !!!

FINALLY HAD THE CAPACITY TO GET DRESSED FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A MONTH. my m.e. often makes exertion like drawing or getting dressed impossible (for reference: it usually takes 3+ months before i’m able to dress myself again, if at all). today meant so much to me as a small exercise in autonomy amidst flare ups 🪷🪷 chose a simple fit in the hopes of not pushing my body too far

learning how to re/access my joy since becoming chronically ill is an ongoing process. allowing myself to make art i’m not satisfied with (often using pen so i can’t erase it) has been one way of making sketching more accessible to my limited capacity. although even quick pen drawings are only usually possible once every five months, this is healing in its own right

edit: on the days i have “more capacity,” i notice i often end up overextending myself out of excitement (?), leading to a crash. even after navigating these chronic illnesses for over two years (and chronic pain for most of my life), this still happens. just today, inspired by my seated shower, i decided to wear a dress - mind you, this was the first time i’ve been able to have a seated shower in over six months - of course, as a result, i’m now experiencing full body pain, muscle aches, a sore throat, and extreme brain fog, hoping it doesn’t lead to a full on pem crash (spoiler: it did)

my partner reminded me that part of this process is leaning to trust that my body will have “higher capacity” days again. i realize, even if i’m motivated by excitement, i’m operating from a sense of urgency. minimizing my exertion even on higher capacity days will help me to relearn my body’s new window of tolerance so that i am less likely to burn myself out, and more likely to experience days with mobility again <3 🌷🌷 watering these seeds. trying to hold my aching body with tenderness. i long for a world in which all of our needs are met, and each of us can access the rest we deserve without compromise

FINALLY HAD THE CAPACITY TO GET DRESSED FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A MONTH. my m.e. often makes exertion like drawing or getting dressed impossible (for reference: it usually takes 3+ months before i’m able to dress myself again, if at all). today meant so much to me as a small exercise in autonomy amidst flare ups 🪷🪷 chose a simple fit in the hopes of not pushing my body too far learning how to re/access my joy since becoming chronically ill is an ongoing process. allowing myself to make art i’m not satisfied with (often using pen so i can’t erase it) has been one way of making sketching more accessible to my limited capacity. although even quick pen drawings are only usually possible once every five months, this is healing in its own right edit: on the days i have “more capacity,” i notice i often end up overextending myself out of excitement (?), leading to a crash. even after navigating these chronic illnesses for over two years (and chronic pain for most of my life), this still happens. just today, inspired by my seated shower, i decided to wear a dress - mind you, this was the first time i’ve been able to have a seated shower in over six months - of course, as a result, i’m now experiencing full body pain, muscle aches, a sore throat, and extreme brain fog, hoping it doesn’t lead to a full on pem crash (spoiler: it did) my partner reminded me that part of this process is leaning to trust that my body will have “higher capacity” days again. i realize, even if i’m motivated by excitement, i’m operating from a sense of urgency. minimizing my exertion even on higher capacity days will help me to relearn my body’s new window of tolerance so that i am less likely to burn myself out, and more likely to experience days with mobility again <3 🌷🌷 watering these seeds. trying to hold my aching body with tenderness. i long for a world in which all of our needs are met, and each of us can access the rest we deserve without compromise

me and my partner at the small masked birthday celebration she organized for me ❤️‍🩹 my sweet friend also brought hypochlorous acid to spray shared surfaces with (a powerful and skin-safe potent that can work to prevent the spread of covid). masking helps to ensure we can continue to make more joyful memories together

to protect myself and others: i mask in all public and private spaces, outdoors, and in my house when i’m not in my room or washing my face in the bathroom. the only places i’ll unmask are unpopulated areas outdoors with air flow (as seen in my posts!) 💌

one of the reasons i advocate so loudly for masking is because even just 1.5 years ago, I WAS MISINFORMED ABOUT COVID (i didn’t know it could be asymptomatic or linger in the air like smoke) ! however, as soon as i learned this, I CHANGED my practices - i advocate so loudly for masking because I WISH I HAD KNOWN THESE FACTS EARLIER and AM VERY OPEN ABOUT MY FAILURES. i also advocate for collective masking, because in some moments, i (among others) am someone who genuinely CAN’T mask despite how much i’m wanting to because of severe sensory issues and inability to breathe - i am heartbroken to know there was also a brief period i even gave up on masking 2(?) years ago in classrooms because i didn’t know about asymptomatic covid or long covid, NONE of my classmates or friends i saw regularly were masking (i felt like my masking didn’t make a difference), i didn’t know how to advocate for my needs/boundaries at the time, and my sensory issues were so severe i couldn’t wear one. i grieve the consequences of my actions and for anyone who was impacted as a result. NOW KNOWING WHAT I KNOW ABOUT COVID, IF MY SENSORY OR BREATHING ISSUES WERE TO BE TRIGGERED WHEN I WAS IN PUBLIC SPACE, I WOULD LEAVE SO I COULD UNMASK WITH JEOPARDIZING MY HEALTH OR THE HEALTH OF THOSE AROUND ME. we learn and change accordingly!

http://MASKBLOC.ORG is a resource to find FREE masks near you - if there are no accessible mask bloc resources, please feel free to dm me and i will try raising fun/dz to have some sent to you directly! everyone deserves protection from airborne viruses, pollution, and state surveillance

me and my partner at the small masked birthday celebration she organized for me ❤️‍🩹 my sweet friend also brought hypochlorous acid to spray shared surfaces with (a powerful and skin-safe potent that can work to prevent the spread of covid). masking helps to ensure we can continue to make more joyful memories together to protect myself and others: i mask in all public and private spaces, outdoors, and in my house when i’m not in my room or washing my face in the bathroom. the only places i’ll unmask are unpopulated areas outdoors with air flow (as seen in my posts!) 💌 one of the reasons i advocate so loudly for masking is because even just 1.5 years ago, I WAS MISINFORMED ABOUT COVID (i didn’t know it could be asymptomatic or linger in the air like smoke) ! however, as soon as i learned this, I CHANGED my practices - i advocate so loudly for masking because I WISH I HAD KNOWN THESE FACTS EARLIER and AM VERY OPEN ABOUT MY FAILURES. i also advocate for collective masking, because in some moments, i (among others) am someone who genuinely CAN’T mask despite how much i’m wanting to because of severe sensory issues and inability to breathe - i am heartbroken to know there was also a brief period i even gave up on masking 2(?) years ago in classrooms because i didn’t know about asymptomatic covid or long covid, NONE of my classmates or friends i saw regularly were masking (i felt like my masking didn’t make a difference), i didn’t know how to advocate for my needs/boundaries at the time, and my sensory issues were so severe i couldn’t wear one. i grieve the consequences of my actions and for anyone who was impacted as a result. NOW KNOWING WHAT I KNOW ABOUT COVID, IF MY SENSORY OR BREATHING ISSUES WERE TO BE TRIGGERED WHEN I WAS IN PUBLIC SPACE, I WOULD LEAVE SO I COULD UNMASK WITH JEOPARDIZING MY HEALTH OR THE HEALTH OF THOSE AROUND ME. we learn and change accordingly! http://MASKBLOC.ORG is a resource to find FREE masks near you - if there are no accessible mask bloc resources, please feel free to dm me and i will try raising fun/dz to have some sent to you directly! everyone deserves protection from airborne viruses, pollution, and state surveillance

trying to survive in an utterly depleted body 🕯️🕯️ due to the severity of my m.e. & fibromyalgia, i am entirely bedbound besides occasional bathroom use & rely on fulltime care to meet my basic needs. for the foreseeable future, i’ll be returning to oakland from boston where i hope to establish a care web for my survival 🫂💌💌

some of my needs are highlighted in the third slide for those who are able !! 💌🌷🌷 s u p p 0 r t in any capacity is deeply appreciated !!! 3 n g a g ! n g will also help this post to reach more people who can h 3 l p <33 🌀🌀 thank you dearly

to combat this hostile a l g 0, please c 0 m m e n t if you can!! here are some invitations: what is something you’ve enjoyed making? is there anything you wish to create? what gives/or has given you hope? if you found a portal, where/to who do you wish it could take you? why? - random sentences or emojis work perfectly too <33

- all compensation will be fvndraised

🪷 -immense thank you to @xosmia and @zeltzinx for all the cherished h 3 l p with the graphics. my brain fog has been so debilitating, this wouldn’t have been possible without you

🪷 - the picture of the bed of moss overlaying the landscape photo in the first slide is “living sculpture” by paul cooper

#MEcfs #Fibromyalgia #ChronicIllness
#Disabled #Myalgicencephalomyelitis #ChronicallyIll #DisabilityCommunity #disabledcommunity #MostlyBedbound #CareWeb #Spoonie #Invisiblelllness #AuDHD #ChronicPain #MillionsMissing #CommunityCare #Oakland #Boston

trying to survive in an utterly depleted body 🕯️🕯️ due to the severity of my m.e. & fibromyalgia, i am entirely bedbound besides occasional bathroom use & rely on fulltime care to meet my basic needs. for the foreseeable future, i’ll be returning to oakland from boston where i hope to establish a care web for my survival 🫂💌💌 some of my needs are highlighted in the third slide for those who are able !! 💌🌷🌷 s u p p 0 r t in any capacity is deeply appreciated !!! 3 n g a g ! n g will also help this post to reach more people who can h 3 l p <33 🌀🌀 thank you dearly to combat this hostile a l g 0, please c 0 m m e n t if you can!! here are some invitations: what is something you’ve enjoyed making? is there anything you wish to create? what gives/or has given you hope? if you found a portal, where/to who do you wish it could take you? why? - random sentences or emojis work perfectly too <33 - all compensation will be fvndraised 🪷 -immense thank you to @xosmia and @zeltzinx for all the cherished h 3 l p with the graphics. my brain fog has been so debilitating, this wouldn’t have been possible without you 🪷 - the picture of the bed of moss overlaying the landscape photo in the first slide is “living sculpture” by paul cooper #MEcfs #Fibromyalgia #ChronicIllness #Disabled #Myalgicencephalomyelitis #ChronicallyIll #DisabilityCommunity #disabledcommunity #MostlyBedbound #CareWeb #Spoonie #Invisiblelllness #AuDHD #ChronicPain #MillionsMissing #CommunityCare #Oakland #Boston

I NEED A SWORDDD 🗡️🌷🌷 (my cane is a wand/wizard staff ofc) FACE FOR THE A L G 0, I’M SO $HA/D0 BNN/3D

I NEED A SWORDDD 🗡️🌷🌷 (my cane is a wand/wizard staff ofc) FACE FOR THE A L G 0, I’M SO $HA/D0 BNN/3D

I WANT TO BUILD A BEAUTIFUL LIFE TOGETHER - YOUR LIBERATION IS MY LIBERATION

no words for this past week. grief has been crushing me lately. i feel so so isolated and with no capacity to intentionally community build - i haven’t felt capable of offering people the care i wish i could provide - and at the same time, most of my connection needs are unmet. i hear myself talk and don’t recognize who i am anymore - i’ve spent most of my life sharing very little of my experiences with friends, and my body has payed the cost of this in illness and pain. although it was never sustainable (and always harmful to myself and the people i love/who love me), i recognize that my silences became very familiar and by extension, comforting. now in my attempts to share, i only feel like i’m spilling all over the place. talking with friends causes me physical pain - and i mistake my discomfort for a harm i’m inflicting upon someone else. although it is hard to admit, i’ve felt very alone for a long time - both due to my own self-neglect and how being disabled impacts my capacity to meet others and community build. affirmation: my heart aches because it is brimming with love. i want to build a beautiful life together but i am relying on lots of hope and determination and very little connection and joy

(edit: i was lucky enough to have the joy of seeing friends yesterday, but with being this severely disabled, everything has a cost and now today - is it 2:49 PM and i am still stuck in bed, and haven't been able to get up to eat/drink water/use the bathroom or take my *morning* pain meds)

bed of moss, “living sculpture” by paul cooper

I WANT TO BUILD A BEAUTIFUL LIFE TOGETHER - YOUR LIBERATION IS MY LIBERATION no words for this past week. grief has been crushing me lately. i feel so so isolated and with no capacity to intentionally community build - i haven’t felt capable of offering people the care i wish i could provide - and at the same time, most of my connection needs are unmet. i hear myself talk and don’t recognize who i am anymore - i’ve spent most of my life sharing very little of my experiences with friends, and my body has payed the cost of this in illness and pain. although it was never sustainable (and always harmful to myself and the people i love/who love me), i recognize that my silences became very familiar and by extension, comforting. now in my attempts to share, i only feel like i’m spilling all over the place. talking with friends causes me physical pain - and i mistake my discomfort for a harm i’m inflicting upon someone else. although it is hard to admit, i’ve felt very alone for a long time - both due to my own self-neglect and how being disabled impacts my capacity to meet others and community build. affirmation: my heart aches because it is brimming with love. i want to build a beautiful life together but i am relying on lots of hope and determination and very little connection and joy (edit: i was lucky enough to have the joy of seeing friends yesterday, but with being this severely disabled, everything has a cost and now today - is it 2:49 PM and i am still stuck in bed, and haven't been able to get up to eat/drink water/use the bathroom or take my morning pain meds) bed of moss, “living sculpture” by paul cooper

ANOTHER REMINDER THAT WHAT MANY OF US CALL “ORGANIZING” ARE OFTEN CO-OPTED PRACTICES AND LIFE-WAYS THAT HAVE BEEN PRACTICED AND MAINTAINED BY MARGINALIZED COMMUNITIES FOR THEIR OWN SURVIVAL, HEALING, AND JOY. LIBERATION IS NOT AN ABSTRACT METAPHOR BUT RATHER A TRUTH EMBODIED IN OUR LONGING, JOY, GRIEF, & RAGE, AND THE LONG FESTERING WOUNDS BOTH TENDED TO AND ILLUMINATED BY COMMUNITY CARE — AS WE ENTER THIS NEW YEAR, FROM BENEATH THE WEIGHT OF COLONIZATION, WHITE SUPREMACY, & CISHETEROPATRIARCHY, ESPECIALLY TO THOSE OF US WITH MATERIAL PRIVILEGES (RACE, CLASS+), SUSTAINED AT THE EXPENSE OF OUR SO-CALLED COMRADES AND FRIENDS, IT IS ALWAYS TIME TO ASK, HOW CAN WE “ORGANIZE” OUR DAILY LIVES TO BETRAY OPPRESSIVE SYSTEMS AND GRIEVE, LOVE AND LABOR TOWARDS OUR LIBERATION COLLECTIVELY?

1. Clips from “Jenin Jenin” (2002), directed by Mohammad Bakri, sourced from @tazsdc

2. @ninagualinga “Indigenous environmental activist from the Sarayaku community of Ecuador highlights the importance of language and cultivating an instrinsparating relationship with the Earth” filmed in a panel by @atmos. Not included in this clip, Gualinga describes how “once we use (the word nature), we’re separating our own bodies from this body. Right? From the big body, the Mother body. We call those spaces living territories. Or in Kichwa, Kawsak Sacha, which is the living forest which recognizes every single being, even the rocks, and the stones as living beings with rights, with sentiments, with personalities, and we live in relationship with them. Building connection to the plants, and building connection to that space, building connection to our food also...”

7. Repost from @tazsdc with original credit cited

8. Palestinian women sitting together in their wheelchairs in the Dead Sea, in the West Bank on October 2, 2008, taken by Sally Cooper

9. Saber al-Ashkar, a Palestinian person, using a wheelchair and hurling rocks to protest for their right to return to their homeland against israeli forces occupying Gaza. Photographed by Mahmoud Hams

10. Poet, Nikki Giovanni, interviewed by Atlanta writer, Pearl Cleage, for “The HistoryMakers’...” (Atlanta, 2005). Sourced from @nbaf

ANOTHER REMINDER THAT WHAT MANY OF US CALL “ORGANIZING” ARE OFTEN CO-OPTED PRACTICES AND LIFE-WAYS THAT HAVE BEEN PRACTICED AND MAINTAINED BY MARGINALIZED COMMUNITIES FOR THEIR OWN SURVIVAL, HEALING, AND JOY. LIBERATION IS NOT AN ABSTRACT METAPHOR BUT RATHER A TRUTH EMBODIED IN OUR LONGING, JOY, GRIEF, & RAGE, AND THE LONG FESTERING WOUNDS BOTH TENDED TO AND ILLUMINATED BY COMMUNITY CARE — AS WE ENTER THIS NEW YEAR, FROM BENEATH THE WEIGHT OF COLONIZATION, WHITE SUPREMACY, & CISHETEROPATRIARCHY, ESPECIALLY TO THOSE OF US WITH MATERIAL PRIVILEGES (RACE, CLASS+), SUSTAINED AT THE EXPENSE OF OUR SO-CALLED COMRADES AND FRIENDS, IT IS ALWAYS TIME TO ASK, HOW CAN WE “ORGANIZE” OUR DAILY LIVES TO BETRAY OPPRESSIVE SYSTEMS AND GRIEVE, LOVE AND LABOR TOWARDS OUR LIBERATION COLLECTIVELY? 1. Clips from “Jenin Jenin” (2002), directed by Mohammad Bakri, sourced from @tazsdc 2. @ninagualinga “Indigenous environmental activist from the Sarayaku community of Ecuador highlights the importance of language and cultivating an instrinsparating relationship with the Earth” filmed in a panel by @atmos. Not included in this clip, Gualinga describes how “once we use (the word nature), we’re separating our own bodies from this body. Right? From the big body, the Mother body. We call those spaces living territories. Or in Kichwa, Kawsak Sacha, which is the living forest which recognizes every single being, even the rocks, and the stones as living beings with rights, with sentiments, with personalities, and we live in relationship with them. Building connection to the plants, and building connection to that space, building connection to our food also...” 7. Repost from @tazsdc with original credit cited 8. Palestinian women sitting together in their wheelchairs in the Dead Sea, in the West Bank on October 2, 2008, taken by Sally Cooper 9. Saber al-Ashkar, a Palestinian person, using a wheelchair and hurling rocks to protest for their right to return to their homeland against israeli forces occupying Gaza. Photographed by Mahmoud Hams 10. Poet, Nikki Giovanni, interviewed by Atlanta writer, Pearl Cleage, for “The HistoryMakers’...” (Atlanta, 2005). Sourced from @nbaf

THERE IS TRULY A LOVE LETTER IN EVERY THING

THERE IS TRULY A LOVE LETTER IN EVERY THING

I COME TO THIS WEEK ACCOMPANIED WITH THE GRIEF THAT RESTS BY THE DOORWAY OF PERHAPS ALL JOY. I HOPE YOU CAN BE HELD BY THE SUN TODAY - ALL CORNERS OF YOU GOLDEN IN THE FACE OF THE SKY, ALL CORNERS OF YOU AS WORTHY OF BEING HELD, KNOWN, AND REMEMBERED

photo of audre lorde dancing with may ayim from @alexispauline, video from last spring, poem on intergenerational grief/reckoning/healing from yesterday's journaling, 'instead i wrote on a rock' from @ceciliavicuna, drawing by the lovely @newt.kazoot 💌💌 credit is otherwise unknown to me. please feel free to drop names if you know where they've been sourced from, thank you thank you thank youuu

I COME TO THIS WEEK ACCOMPANIED WITH THE GRIEF THAT RESTS BY THE DOORWAY OF PERHAPS ALL JOY. I HOPE YOU CAN BE HELD BY THE SUN TODAY - ALL CORNERS OF YOU GOLDEN IN THE FACE OF THE SKY, ALL CORNERS OF YOU AS WORTHY OF BEING HELD, KNOWN, AND REMEMBERED photo of audre lorde dancing with may ayim from @alexispauline, video from last spring, poem on intergenerational grief/reckoning/healing from yesterday's journaling, 'instead i wrote on a rock' from @ceciliavicuna, drawing by the lovely @newt.kazoot 💌💌 credit is otherwise unknown to me. please feel free to drop names if you know where they've been sourced from, thank you thank you thank youuu

MATCHING THE FIT TO MY MOBILITY AID FOR CONFIDENCE i don’t want to hide my pain or support needs any longer. been working through internalized ableist “imposter syndrome.” it’s been challenging to validate having a dyanmic disability, making sense of needing a cane for support and relief although there are moments i can walk without it (although even this catches up to me later in the cost of spoons or a flare up, leading to periods where i am bedbound without choice). just a cane being helpful should be enough of a reason for us to deserve this support or any aid that can allow us some relief!!! - OUR NEEDS ARE ALLOWED TO FLUCTUATE AND DESERVE TO TAKE UP SO MUCH SPACE IN THE WORLD

MATCHING THE FIT TO MY MOBILITY AID FOR CONFIDENCE i don’t want to hide my pain or support needs any longer. been working through internalized ableist “imposter syndrome.” it’s been challenging to validate having a dyanmic disability, making sense of needing a cane for support and relief although there are moments i can walk without it (although even this catches up to me later in the cost of spoons or a flare up, leading to periods where i am bedbound without choice). just a cane being helpful should be enough of a reason for us to deserve this support or any aid that can allow us some relief!!! - OUR NEEDS ARE ALLOWED TO FLUCTUATE AND DESERVE TO TAKE UP SO MUCH SPACE IN THE WORLD

FOUND THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SCARF I’VE EVER SEEN IN MY MOMS CAR??!! NEW ALTER EGO UNLOCKEDDD

FOUND THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SCARF I’VE EVER SEEN IN MY MOMS CAR??!! NEW ALTER EGO UNLOCKEDDD