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Survival is the Ability to Swim in Strange Water

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There is a city that this darkness can’t hide.

There are the embers of a fire that’s gone out,

But I can still feel the heat on my skin.

This mess we’re in, well you and I,

maybe you and I,

We can light up the night.

[“I realize one of the reasons I struggle so hard to deal with change that happens or to bring about change is because I lack the ability to imagine what life would be like if it were different.

I am reminded of the story of an autistic college student. The boy had classes at 8:30 a.m., but the battery in his alarm clock had died. He was concerned he would oversleep and miss his lessons, so he had to think of a solution. The one he came up with resonates so deeply with me. He decided to sleep in the classroom at school. He lacked the adaptive skills to replace the clock battery.

I have so many of this kind of incident in my life that I have stopped noticing them. Perhaps the most dramatic was the first time I ever drove in the snow. I noticed my car was behaving differently on this unusual surface. I realized I didn’t know how to deal with it. I did what at the time seemed utterly logical: as I lost control of the car, I opened the door and threw myself out. I was lucky. The car narrowly missed my head and brought itself to a halt by crashing into a tree. Since then I have avoided driving in snow whenever possible. On the occasions I must do so, I inch along at a couple of miles per hour. Until this moment, it has never occurred to me to ask someone to teach me how to drive safely in the snow.

Many autism experts believe daily living skills, such as managing finances, need to be explicitly taught to people on the autism spectrum. Everything most nonautistic people pick up as they go along—how to shop, catch a bus, cook, clean, or manage money—are skills that are difficult for me to acquire simply by assimilation. I need a book, a video, or someone to explain and show me how to do it.

There’s a perception that anyone with average or above-average intelligence will naturally pick up these skills. Strangely, intelligence seems to have little to do with it, and one study even found that problems of this kind are especially prominent in those autistic people with greater cognitive abilities.

I have been lucky that I managed to somehow muddle through. The points where my deficits might have been picked up were missed, or the people who have helped me have failed to mention how unusual my issues have been. Every month the phone would be cut off. I had no system for paying bills. In the past, we have had to have a prepaid electricity key. Even now something unexpected—like a demand to pay the Dartford bridge toll—can go unpaid until the amount has more than tripled. I cannot adequately explain why this happens.

My bank manager and accountant got together and sorted out a system for me. It was a simple one. I would have two current accounts: one to use with my debit card, the other for direct debits. Rather than paying myself only when I thought I needed to, a set monthly amount would go into my bills account, and each week an amount would be transferred over to pay for daily living expenses. The system worked well. At least it did until I started earning less money. It hadn’t occurred to me I would have to cut back.”]

laura james, from odd girl out: my extraordinary autistic life, 2017

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Twitter threads are one of the worst ways to convey a large quantity of information ever invented, flag semaphore would be more tolerable.

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"The info is on post 14 of this login gated twitter thread" and "the info is on our discord" are possibly the two most evil forms of digital communication devised by the hands of womankind (I fear we'd sooner live in a world without men than without "join our discord to see it")

It's so fucked up there's people in the replies of posts about Salem's ban justifying how he "deserved it" and then you click their profile and their entire blog is about stalking and harassing him.

tinker-tannerReblogged remanedur10hexeggcuteApr 1FollowI need a polite and effective way to say "hey your heart is truly in the right place and your anger is often righteous but I think sometimes you’re getting recreationally mad about things that are frankly not worth the amount of energy you’re spending on them, and every time you do this you're driving yourself slightly more insane with nothing to show for it," and then I need a way to broadcast that message through a loudspeaker to roughly 30,000 people at once, and THEN I need a time machine to send that message to my past self lol. and maybe a second time machine in case past me tries to be clever and sabotage the version of me who comes through the first time machine8017,77430,779
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tinker-tannerReblogged10hhomunculus-argumentFeb 24FollowI find it funny how most working dog breeds are pretty cut-and-dry, they do exactly what it says on the label, but with hunting dogs it gets all No Such Thing As A Fish. Like herding dogs herd, right? And shepherd dogs herd sheep. They make the flocks move where you want them to go. Some nip at their heels, some just use scare tactics, but their whole job is to make the flocks move. They run around them going hehe get relocated, idiots. Guard dogs guard. Sure there's the patrolling alarm dogs whose whole job is to go around and supervise that nothing is out of place, and there's the four-legged security guard type that make sure that either the intruder leaves the premises on their own or with several limbs removed, but the principle is still pretty simple. This Is My House, My People, Our Livestock, And You Can Fuck Off. But hunting dogs? Are we talking about the mushy temperament eager-to-please soft-mouthed retriever who can hold an egg in their teeth without breaking it? A bear dog that fucks off into the woods to find big game the size of a truck and then barks to keep it in place until the hunter with a gun can get there and deal with it? The noble dachshund that is specifically tube-shaped and audacious-natured in order to bolt into tunnels to go badger a badger in its own damn house? Or a pointer, who points. My boyfriend's family's dogs are a very rare seal hunting breed, that are no longer used to hunt seals. They make pretty good alarm dogs, though, and for breaking your ear drums.583,9529,957
tinker-tannerReblogged10hhomunculus-argumentMar 6FollowEvery time I suck ass at doing crafts, I tell myself: do not think about David Shrigley's piano dog. And every time, my brain tells me, whatever you say, dog.64,4498,240
tinker-tannerReblogged10hhomunculus-argumentFeb 12FollowThe Odyssey but retold as a low-stakes modern adventure of one guy out with his girlfriend leaving the bar with his buddies to do just one (1) simple thing real quick, it'll take like 15 minutes tops, he'll be right back, but then some bullshit happens and the trip keeps getting more complicated as more bullshit keeps happening while he just tries to get back to the bar because he promised his girlfriend that he'd get back and he knows that she's still there because she told him she'd wait there. And by the time he finally gets back it's almost 3 am and the bar is about to close while she's sitting there stone cold sober, surrounded by 5 drunk guys unsuccessfully trying to convince her to give up on waiting for him and go home with one of them instead. And the guy shows up to proceed to beat the shit out of them before explaining himself to her like hey sorry bullshit kept happening, my phone fell into a storm drain and my wallet got stolen when I was trying to find someone who'd borrow me a phone so I could call and9710,02020,643
tinker-tannerReblogged10hhomunculus-argument5dFollowRandomly remembered seeing this random old black and white photo from like the 50s, pretty sure it was from Sweden. A picture from a morgue, of a tall blond man in some kind of an uniform approaching another man standing beside an opened coffin, clutching something to his chest while looking at the approaching man with a look of wary insult on his face. The caption explained that this was an incident of a police officer stopping a man from putting a bottle of beer in his father's coffin (his own father, not the cop's father) because for some reason doing that was against Sweden's burial laws.I don't remember the details but I recall how the guy had the looks of a rough life written all over him, ragged clothes in contrast to the police officer's pristine uniform - though obscured by motion blur as he was rapidly approaching with hateful intent - and the much finer burial clothes of the deceased. A small, skinny man with black hair, holding onto the bottle that's about to be confiscated like it's something precious to him.I felt like something wasn't adding up and went to the comments to see if there was additional context that was missing from all this, and there was: The son and the father were Romani, and at least at the time it was still very much a tradition in Swedish Romani culture to bury the dead with little gifts - not necessarily extravagant or expensive, but things that the lost loved one would have liked.This wasn't about a mourning son being stopped from playfully paying his respects in a way that someone else thought indignified. This was about a man being prohibited from performing his own peoples' funeral rites.vvlpecvlae5dHad to go find the photo, it's indeed Swedish. Taken by Åke Borglund and photo of the year 1958, apparently.Source: https://digitaltmuseum.se/021016531349/arets-bild-1958-tagen-i-stillhetens-kapell-tid-uppstandelsens-kapell-ihomunculus-argument5dHoly fuck you found it.I misremembered, it wasn't a morgue, those are empty church pews.162,4645,502
tinker-tannerReblogged nonas-third-tantrum10hqueer-book-character-tournament1dFollowQueer Book Character Tournament Round TwoJohn Gaius- The Locked TombIlya Rozanov- Heated Rivalry1,272 votes • Remaining time: 1 day 5 hoursCharacter, book, and author names under the cutKeep readingmayasaura15hALT103121
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tinker-tannerReblogged loki-zen10hpostoctobristJan 24FollowAnonymous asked:have you ever been to a cat cafe? what do you think of the idea?postoctobrist answered:I worry about having a kind of ‘thinking the stripper likes me’ relationship with an animal357,75113,298
tinker-tannerReblogged10hlizardsfromspace2dFollowIf you overdose on nostalgia slop you end up at the most advanced stage: talking about the peace and quiet of 1970s Belfast and 1970s New YorkThe 90s really were a better time bc we had no means of discovering that the guy who played Hercules thought the era of New York City where the city was bankrupt and arson was happening all the time was calm and restfulabigailnussbaum2dThe thing is, longing for Belfast in the 70s is obviously stupider from the perspective of simple historical reality. There was an honest to god civil war going on at the time, and I know British people who have spoken about either their anxiety over traveling to Belfast around this time, or (if they're a bit younger) growing up knowing that Beflast was a place they could not safely go.But New York City in the 70s is something that's embedded in popular culture. Our whole image of a city as someplace dirty, seedy, crime-ridden, and dangerous was derived from this city and this time. There are whole swathes of culture, from Taxi Driver to Batman, that have their canonical form because they were made in this particular moment, or were referring to this particular city. So pervasive is this perception that people still have those associations with NYC decades later, even now that it's one of the safest cities on earth, and following a very aggressive campaign to clean it up and make it tourist-friendly. The idea that anyone - much less a conservative white man - would be rhapsodizing about the lost glory of NYC in the 70s is simply deranged, and I have to believe that even Sorbo's fellow travelers were looking at him like he was crazy, because he should know that the talking points are very clear on this score.42562
tinker-tannerReblogged lizardsfromspace10hzaebuccaNov 10, 2022FollowAfternoon by the river, early 2000s#pokemon3516,96723,913
tinker-tannerReblogged lizardsfromspace11hforthegothicheroineDec 25, 2024FollowJimmy Stewart is a very good actor, but it's odd that he played so many everymen when he looks and talks like nobody else on earth.2443884
tinker-tannerReblogged11hyandere-angelaJul 23, 2021Followme, about to make a left turn:yandere-angelaApr 17, 2025since i’ve been living in japan, here’s an updateme, about to make a right turn: yandere-angela11hme, driving in general in a small japanese town where nobody follows the traffic laws nor speed limit and the streets are really narrow:1515,22919,819
tinker-tannerReblogged tainbocuailnge11hscribefindegilDec 8, 2025FollowAnother thing about trying to be more sustainable re: clothing that I don't often see people talk about (except my friend will. hi will) is the importance of clothing items that can be adjusted to accommodate body changes. I really want to focus on this when I make my own clothes, because there's no point in having a bunch of beautiful pieces that become entirely unwearable if you gain or lose a little weight. Obviously there are limits depending on the style and type of garments you're making/buying, but the sustainability impact of adjustable waistbands cannot be overstated.scribefindegilDec 8, 2025Bodies are never static, and even in sewing circles this is not acknowledged as much as it should be. Even body-positive spaces will say "make sure to re-take your measurements each time you start a new project, because they will change and this is morally neutral!" but they don't really talk about how to make garments that will work with these changes instead of against them. A lot of it is fatphobia (the same reason that many people will make/buy 'aspirational' garments that are too small for them instead of things that actually fit their current body) but there's also just a cultural fear of and thus avoidance of the concept of change, and additionally we're so used to fast fashion and the disposable nature of clothing that it's easier to just keep buying new things any time there's a minor change to the size or shape of our bodies rather than focusing on clothes that can adapt to these changes.finnlongman19hMy sister makes clothes (she has a sustainable slow fashion business), and this is something she focuses on a lot, particularly as her customer demographic includes a lot of people whose figure is likely to fluctuate due to pregnancy, menstrual cycles, endo, IBS, and other conditions that affect your waistband. She's also now breastfeeding, and has been working on designing clothes that work for breastfeeding but will still work the rest of the time, so that they don't have to be "temporary" garments -- they can be a long-term investment that just happens to be extra useful when you're breastfeeding.Although the types of clothes she makes aren't for me, since I tend to wear slouchy unfashionable men's clothes and that's the opposite of her vibe, it has made me a lot more aware of things like this when I buy clothes myself. And it's something she actively draws attention to when she's describing her clothes on social media, whereas a lot of women's fashion wouldn't admit that these fluctuations happen at all, especially not when they're because of unglamorous medical conditions like IBS.She's just returning from maternity leave so there are only a couple of things in her online shop at the moment -- she tends to only have a small number of designs at a time anyway, since everything is handmade to order -- but her instagram has examples of some of her older pieces so you can see how they're designed to be comfortable for changing bodies (starting with her own). 8633948
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tinker-tannerReblogged11htrismeowgistusJan 22Followokay so the problem with nonfags' analysis of homoeroticism in art is that most of you are very very bad at recognizing actual homoeroticism. I say this as a gay man.trismeowgistusJan 22like most of what you guys think is homoeroticism is actually just "gay bravado", which is a process where straight men ritually reinforce their own heterosexuality by joking about gay sex with each other. It's a form of homophobia. The joke is that gay sex is repulsive, bizarre, and inconceivable for them to actually engage in. it's incredibly common and I can't believe we're still having this discussion honestlytrismeowgistusJan 22no no this is an excellent addition thank you484,5787,870
tinker-tannerReblogged osmanthusoolong11hda-mous14hFollowtranssweets asked:I thought I would share a similar study about pay discrepancy between trans and cis people. Statistics Canada (the national statistics office of the canadian government) released this: https://thetyee.ca/News/2025/12/10/Statistics-Canada-Study-Shows-Gap-Trans-Non-Binary-Worker/ I didn't remember this detail but, after checking the data Canadian trans women also make about 85 cents for every dollar Canadian trans men make. and it comes out to trans men making about 9000 dollars more per year (when adjusted for age). Trans women also have higher rates of poverty and unemployment. Worth noting that the data range for these numbers is about full time employed trans people from the ages of 25 to 64. There is a lot more, but yeada-mous answered:good to see the gap between us and cis men is only (I say only, but it's still bad 😭) 18% up there, though it's wild that trans men only have half that gap at 9.2%. thanks for sharing this!31652
tinker-tannerReblogged stackslip11hbandydearAug 25, 2025FollowI don’t care how cringe/problematic that person is, if you obsessively follow their activity on/offline when they just want to be left alone you are the problem. You are a stalker. 1297479
tinker-tannerReblogged mlembug11hwolfertinger666burn it 🔥(he/him) 🐇wolfertinger666said this on bluesky but:i genuinely encourage non black people to engage with this, who might be worried they can't because of the word "nigga" because they feel like it's overstepping. the only way it would be overstepping is saying it to me when ur not black, but please don't be afraid to engage with black art.i kinda get annoyed when non black people police other non blacks on how to engage with black culture because it creates a problem where non black people avoid us all together which can be extremely isolating and create even MORE tension and overall being uneducated.65526,26241,723
tinker-tannerReblogged mlembug11hparkchanwoohooFeb 6, 2022Follow"How did your great grandpa stepping on a landmine protect this country" is a-- I don't even want to say heritage post, it's more than that. I think it deserves real world accolades 2414,07819,601
tinker-tannerReblogged breadstyx11hdominaexmachina4dFollowThe Label Is the WorkThere is a study. Duke University, published 2023. Researchers showed participants a set of paintings and labeled them either “human-created” or “AI-created.” The twist: every single painting in the set was AI-generated. Same images. Different labels. Different ratings — across liking, beauty, profundity, and perceived worth — every time, in favor of the “human” ones. The effect wasn’t visual. It was entirely top-down: the label rewired the experience of the object itself.This is not a niche academic finding. This is a description of how aesthetic judgment actually works for most people, most of the time. You don’t encounter a work in a vacuum. You encounter it with a story attached. The story is part of the work.Which makes the following cases interesting.2023. Miles Astray, photographer. He submitted a real photograph of a flamingo — taken on film, no AI involved — to a photography competition’s AI-generated category. To make a point. The image won both jury and public vote. Contest organizers disqualified it when Astray revealed it was real. The photo was too good to be human, apparently. Until it was.2023. Suzi Dougherty, Sydney. She shot a photograph of her son mid-stride in a Gucci exhibition, mannequins in the background. Entered a local photo contest. Disqualified for being AI-generated. The judge said the image felt “too perfect to be true”. It was a phone photo taken in ten minutes. The mannequins read as uncanny. The son was just photogenic.2025. The Velvet Sundown. AI folk rock band. Over a million Spotify streams before anyone publicly questioned the source. People added the music to playlists. Then someone noticed the promo photos looked off. Not the music — the photos. The music still sounded the same after the reveal. Only people’s relationship to it changed.Three cases. Three different directions of the same error. Human work flagged as AI. AI work enjoyed as human. The detector isn’t running on aesthetics — it’s running on suspicion, context, and whatever story arrived first.The post from Tumblr says AI is always noticeable. Saturation gives it away. Movement gives it away. It’s just so easy to spot.The data says otherwise. The data says you spot what you’re looking for, and you find what you expect.105144
tinker-tannerReblogged elodieunderglass11hseravphJun 21, 2023Followbeing so fr when I say that transmisogyny has put feminism back like 50 years seravphJun 21, 2023what i thought we had distanced ourselves from was the reduction of women to vaginas and wombs and the ability to bear children. i thought we had progressed past ‘dresses are for women and pants are for men.’ i thought we progressed past the idea that someone is less of a woman if she does not adhere strictly to beauty standards. i thought we progressed past the idea that naturally being comfortable adhering to highly feminine standards is vulgar. but i (sarcastically) guess no one could have predicted that trans-exclusive feminism would be the downfall of all the progress we’ve made sadochismJun 23, 2023“We’re in danger of losing what the entire second wave of feminism, what the entire second wave of women’s liberation was built on, and that was ‘Biology is not destiny’. ‘One is not born a woman,’ Simone de Beauvoir said, ‘one becomes one’. Now there’s some place where transsexual women and other women intersect. Biological determinism has been used for centuries as a weapon against women, in order to justify a second-class and oppressed status. How on Earth, then, are you going to pick up the weapon of biological determinism and use it to liberate yourself? It’s a reactionary tool.”— Quote by Leslie Feinberg, from TransSisters: The Journal of Transsexual Feminism, issue 7, volume 1. 1995.26587,09281,347
tinker-tannerReblogged11hamiya-shirou11hFollowHornet Silksong is literally so coolamiya-shirou11hShe's like if Guts from Berserk was a bug 258
tinker-tannerReblogged11hamiya-shirou11hFollowSilksong - Sea of Sorrow's Secret Seaborn Ending (LEAKED) amiya-shirou11hanother Lace boss fight but this time she's half seaborn716
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tinker-tannerReblogged elodieunderglass11hgirlsjustwannahaveadegreeOct 15, 2025FollowMe at least twice a week3011,50415,819
tinker-tannerReblogged azdoine11hkata4a1dFollowannotated texts you can read on genius.comthe 12th century old/middle english poem "the grave"pale fire by john shade by vladimir nabakovsteiner math11223
tinker-tannerReblogged scamanthalikely11htinyyellowflowers-blog3dFollowWent to the grocery store with my kindergartener. We weighed some bananas: 2 pounds even. We weighed a watermelon: 4 pounds even. We weighed some mangos: a little over 1 pound. We weighed the watermelon AND the bananas: 6 pounds even.“That’s funny” said the child “because 2+4=6 and two pounds and four pounds is six pounds. It’s like the same as math!”“What happens if you add 6+1?”“SEVEN”“What if we put one pound of mangos on the scale?” <mangos added>“IT’S THE SAME!!”“OK, what’s 7-4?”“Three?”“What if we take the four pound watermelon off the scale?” <watermelon removed>“Mama! Are you telling me math works In Real Life? Think of all the things you could measure!!”4912,07521,977
tinker-tannerReblogged amiya-shirou12hbluering82dFollowlisten to me, this is so so important: you've gotta get used to really giving it your 60% as a default. like don't half-ass it necessarily but try not to go over 70% or so of an ass. you'll feel better and live a happier more fulfilled life, and on the rare occasions where you do need to lock the fuck in you'll be able to pull off bullshit that the sad miserable wretches giving it their 100% can never dream off, because they're busy draining themselves dry and you have energy reserves to spare.loppiart1dI love running and I used to push myself hard every single time. I would get overuse injuries regularly that would set me back. I started doing 90% of my running at an easy pace after a particularly bad hip strain, and in the past 2 years I've beat my personal best in the 10k 3 times and can run further than I ever could before. You have to save your energy and preserve your health for when you need it!53,0374,894
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