/r9k/ - ROBOT9999

Why do you want to kill yourself?

>>85323
because I am unable to live. I already know I will be one of those people sleeping on the streets.

>>85324
What's your situation like

>>85325
I'm 18 last year of school I havent studied I dont want to study I live with my mother we are broke she will kick me out soon because I dont do anything other than rot in bed all day I dont want to work or improve on my situation. That's why I see sucidie as the easiest exit

>>85326
to you, is suicide easier than working on improving your situation?

when you imagine 'improving', what do you see it as?

>>85327
yes. Improving would actually involve putting in effort for once. But I believe I am incapable of doing so. That's why if I dont kill myself I will end up a homeless junkie. But suicide is just a few seconds and no more effort is ever needed afterwards.

>>85328
have you considered drugs like adderall or antidepressants?

>>85329
Yeah but I dont know where to get the former, I'm going to speak to my doctor tomorrow hopefully, perhaps he will help somehow. But I feel like no amount of medication will help me put in effort.

>>85330
often, the first step is the hardest. fear can keep us in a loop where we never believe we're capable because it's been so long since we actually tried to do something.

also, often, 'improvement' feels daunting because you lack a plan. what would you need to accomplish for your mom to not kick you out?

also, really consider the drugs. if it were slightly easier to do things, would your life become more liveable?

>>85330
Hey man, listen I'm gonna be blunt here, killing yourself is a fucking faggot thing to do, think about your mother man, shes raised you for all of her life, fed you clothed you, everything under the fucking sun. And youre just gonna end it all? Thats just a huge fuck you to her dude, and everyone else who cares about you. How about you get up off your ass and go apply for a job, have you ever tried that because it really sounds like you haven't.

I ain't trying to say all of this to bully you or put you on blast, I'm just telling you how it is, straight up. Suicide is an incredibly selfish thing to do and its a huge fuck you to everyone who holds you dear.

>I think I might kill myself soon. I already tied a noose. I'm going to see my doctor but I doubt he can help. Maybe they will institutionalize me if I tell them about my plan.
Hopefully

>>85331
I agree with him. Im not usually for meds but it sounds like a little bit could help you out, and yeah you may feel like a zombie but hopefully that feeling like a zombie will bite you in the ass to fix your life up so you dont feel so compelled to take them.

>>85333
No fucking Soul Award
unless your talking about him hopefully getting the help he needs. than in that case, yeah hopefully.

>>85332
I used to have a part time job before, I used to put in effort and stuff but last year or so I realised how pointless it is. and honestly i dont care if whether its selfish or not

Did I make it in time? I ask, as someone who infinitely respects Sharty and each of its users with their personal fate, their grief, and trials, please don't do this. Sharty always appears much colder than he actually is. When it comes to the precious fates of our peers, no matter where they are or what unbearable burden has fallen on their shoulders, we always do everything in our power to be united wherever possible. If everyone here were to meet face to face, they would be a reliable support for their comrades who are now driven into a dead end. Don't do this, because fate, by carrying a person through crises, can open up opportunities for a way out for even the most desperate souls.
If nothing can convince you otherwise, which would be very scary for me personally, please postpone your decision until April 30, 2045, so that at least for a nice number… No kidding, find whatever you can, if you can't, we'll be here exactly as long as necessary, but don't do anything irreparable, you only have one life, your actions could be irreversible

Please at least try the meds OP

If you're Christian OP, consider going to Church more and praying more. It will absolutely help alongside all the other advice everyone else has given

Not saying to be like these Televangelist retards who say all you need to do is proclaim your faith and everything will be good. But praying and Mass alongside your other efforts to improve will help.

>>85326
I'm in my last year of school too, don't do it. Killing yourself is gay as fuck. Your mother probably won't kick you out, especially not if you show some value, so even if you dont work at least do some chores and help out, she will appreciate it. She probably cares about you a lot more than you think. It isn't over for your exams as well, separate an hour a day to study for specifically the subjects that matter for whatever you applied to, if you can get 1 solid hour down a day every day until exams you should be able to get at least decent grades. If you want better, work a bit more. Do past papers.

Take the fucking meds if they are offered. I know we all talk about meds being bad but between that and the noose the meds are better. Talk to the doctor, talk to your school counselor, talk to your mother, talk to a priest if you go to church, just don't kill yourself, its not worth it. Take that noose and burn it or bin it, don't be a tranny going ACK when you haven't even experienced adult life.

Don’t do that nigga

This is an embarrassing reason to kill yourself. You want to do it because… you're lazy? What do you even do all day? What stops you from actually being productive? Why do you lack motivation? Don't do it man, especially when you haven't even tried yet and have no life experience. At least try to go into the army if you really think you can't do anything yourself.

>>85332
Not op but if I kms I will try to repay my parents back all of everything they invested in me, to get square with them, before I waste myself. I know I can never repay that value, but alternatively I can try to become someone so awful that to rid them of myself would be a mercy. Or if that doesn’t work, then fuck them. I am being selfish and don’t deny it. You cannot sue me because I’ll be dead. Admittedly all the guilt of that (plus the sliver of hope that things get better) is why I am still here. Even still there is no meaning to life and everything turns into dust in the end so who cares

>>85346
rare sincere gem on 'arty
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