I'm on both sides, but then again I'm not straight nor masculine, and never have been. On one hand, if the whole gay conversion therapy just made people feel bad, then all this should do is make you feel bad. On the other hand, porn addiction can be devastating, especially something like this. Again, I'm coming in as a gay man who was already feminine, so if these videos had an affect, it wouldn't be noticeable. Surprisingly, these videos did help me figure out I was a feminine man and gay. I read things like Andreas's comment, and wondered why when I stopped watching them, I still thought men were cute or wanted to paint my nails. I get it sounds stupid, but these videos did something positive for me. Or at least quitting them did. Looking back, I can see why I liked them. An excuse to be feminine, and gay. Just blame the videos as the reason you were gay or feminine.